What to do, what to do...

...with my life. The worst feeling for me would be that this is the most that I can /could achieve. Ever since graduating from College the question I’ve been asking myself is what is my purpose, what should I do with life. Now I ask myself…there must be more than this. Of course now these questions only apply to career.

I want to be significant, successful, I don’t want to be caught up in this day to day grind. There must be more to this life…than just working for a living…

Or maybe i'm just not in the mood to work today or maybe its the HEAT! my sweat glands are tired na!...haaayyyy!!!

Leaving Vaguelandia

Funny how your profile on Friendster is somewhat the official declaration of your status. Hehe! Well for those of you who have been checking us out...KAMI NA:-) Our Vaguelandia vacation is over and I'm excited for what's ahead. If possible i'd like to take Lalaland with us though. WOOHOO!!! This is going to be a fun ride:-)

If you don't like mush...stop reading here.

With all the little credibility i have left let me just say that you are the most amazing person I know and I adore you to death. Trust me...this is going to work:-)

Shaping up in 2007

I bumped into a good friend the other day who knew about what had happened earlier this year. Amazing this person. We spoke briefly about how what I did was understandable and how everything will all turn out better for everyone in the end. It really boils down to making the choices that are right for you and living with it. This encounter really lifted my spirits and made me think about how things are shaping up and how I actually have much to be thankful for.

Anyway…

Despite a rather tumultuous start, 2007 seems to be making a turn for the better. I hope this realization doesn’t jinx it but I feel the need to be thankful for a lot of things. My office inbox is now down to 300 (from 1350), my projects at work are making progress, my room looks clean and organized, although all I really did was move my clutter to the other room, I’m down to 167lbs. (Only 12lbs to go to reach my ideal weight), and the weather in Vagulandia is the best its ever been. All I need now is more time and money.

Still a lot of plans for the year - moving out, travel, visit Mom, save money, pay loans, work on my 100 things to do list…all exciting and fun things. I’m watching less TV and living more.

I hope I can keep this up.

Sick in the Head...

Feeling extra mushy today, can't help it...so I privately break out in song:

Free In You
(Indigo girls)

A hard knock
A cold clock
Ticking off my time
A long look
But no luck
Couldn't seem to find
Or unwind
Into peace of mind
While I was trying

A quick glance
A big chance
My heart beat like a drum
I saw you
And I knew
Chances just don't come
Round again
Not like this
First a laugh
Then a kiss

And I'm free in you
I've got no worries on my mind
I know what to do
That's to treat you right
And love you kind
Thank you ever on my mind
Love is just like breathing
When it's true
And I'm free in you

The lost time
And self pride
Are my big mistakes
A clear voice
A bad choice
Sounding like an ache
In my day
Not too bad
But too real
To go away

But now I'm free in you
I've got no worries on my mind
I know what to do
That's to treat you right
And love you kind
Thank you ever on my mind
Love is just like breathing
When it's true
And I'm free in you

And I don't know
How you show
Such gentle disregard
For the ugly in me
That I see
That for so long
I took so hard
(I took so hard)
And I truly believe
(I truly believe)
That you see the best in me
(That you see the best in me)
I'm in love
We all love
And that thought
Sets me free

Free in you
Got no worries on my mind
I know what to do
That's to treat you right
And love you kind
Thank you ever on my mind
Love is just like breathing
When it's true
And I'm free in you
Yes I'm free in you

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Frightening this happiness...